I’m sorry for being me and I wanted to let you know that I hate me more than you have ever hated me. But, I want to make one thing clear, I don’t hate my life. I love my life because, you are a part of it. My Family Is My Life. I wish you knew that. I love what God’s given me and I’m thankful everyday that my family is still sort of together. That’s why I’m so afraid to kill myself. I don’t want to not ever see you and dad, and my sister, and my little brother. The only important thing in my life, the reason I live, is my family. But, I hate me. The way i do things, the way to talk and look, the fact that I’m stupid and fail at everything no matter how much I try. I wish i made you happy. I wish i was a perfect daughter. I wish I never hurt any of you. So, for every time I’ve hurt any of you or done anything wrong in your eyes, I promise you, I will make myself pay. no matter how much it hurts.